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Howdy! I had a fairly good day today. Its has basically been one of those "don't do anything" kind of days. I'm sitting here chillin at the house and watching tv.

I was inspired by Bethany's profile change and decided to find something different myself. I thought I would try out a fall (ish) layout.

So, I am definitely ready for my girlfriend's and I birthdays! October 1st through the 3rd! Can't wait!

Well, my posts have been a little short lately but I can't think about much right now. I hope that God blesses you and keeps you in His hands

Balloons!

It has been quite a while since I last posted. I had the best weekend I've had in a really long time. It was definitely the best date I've ever been on and Bethany and I loved it! We went to the Plano Balloon Festival and enjoyed ourselves. We even got to hear the worst British impersonations through the "Beatles Tribute Band". lol. I think I could have done a better job as Ringo but you know, whaddya say?

I fell in love with Bethany again this week. She continues to amaze me and make me feel like I am needed and wanted. One of the funniest times was at IHOP. There was a drunk lady and her man eating at the table next to us. She went in to an entire speech to her waitress about how wonderful she was doing and could barely stay awake. Great times. Although, I did almost have to hold Bethany down so she wouldn't kill all of the homecoming school kids. Yikes!

Well, its 10:45 pm and I can't decide if I want to go to bed or watch Monty Python's quest for the Holy Grail....

Rest

So...I am finally back. My grandmother died last Friday and I drove up to Oklahoma for her services. The family took it fairly well. She was an amazing woman of God and constantly prayed for her family. I didn't realize the family was that big until we were all there! She had 20 grandchildren and 23 great grandchildren! Wow. So, I haven't had any internet access for a while.

I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and happy. I am glad that I do not have to work today, as there is plenty of work to do around the house. I've got to clean my room from the hurricane that I left it in. (Quick packing)

I think that I and the rest of America is tired of the presidential election. I am so sick about hearing somebody said this and someone did that. Just hurry along November 4th.

Well, I'm gonna see if I can do something productive today.

Boring

Okay, so I'm blank on anything today... I did see a really cool military helicopter flying very low to me today. It was some kind of stealth copter. As you can see, I'm tired.

I'm getting up at 5:30 am and don't want to. Unloading trucks that early is not fun. Well, I can't wait until next weekend! I get to see my girlfriend! And then birthday time!

I shall be much more interesting tomorrow. Thanks to all and may God bless you!

Bye

Tired

I'm tired. Tired of not making enough money to save any. I am ready to really start making the dough. Obviously, that won't happen in the ministry but I can still dream.

I really want a vacation too. I just want to get away and relax. I really don't care where it is either! Colorado would be best though. Our family hasn't had a vacation in...5 years. We are severely overdue.

The past couple of days have been very powerful for my girlfriend's and my relationship. We have seen that we can not only survive but thrive together. It is only in conflict that your character is tested. We experienced a little and came out with flying colors. It was great. I love you Bethany.

So, I really am tired now. Its 11:49 pm and I need to catch up on sleep. Good night!

Country Thinkin

It is extremely late to be writing a blog but it kind of just "hit me". I get these random thoughts occasionally and love it.

Today was an okay kinda day. It rained for most of the time and I was outdoors during it! Had to clean up a nasty spill at work and that was enlightening. The smell of raw sewage isn't something customers usually want to smell while shopping...haha.

I had a good long talk with the folks about money, moving, and whatnot. We tried to figure out what it would cost me to move. Scary. Like, impossible without a great paying job or two scary. If God provides a way for me, I will be able to move. Without Him I can do nothing and in this case, it is very literal. Did I mention that I've had a headache all day? Don't know why...

I had a ...discussion with someone today about being redneck and wanted to talk about this. Let me first clarify that this is in no way retaliatory to their statements or opinions. This is what I say. I am proud of my country, southern, redneck heritage. The term redneck comes from The West Virginia Coal Miners March or the Battle of Blair Mountain when coal miners wore red bandannas around their necks to identify themselves as seeking the opportunity to unionize. It also comes from people who worked outdoors for most of their lives and developed a "red neck" from the sun.

I have supplied a few visual examples of what I mean. I have total pride and respect in my heritage. There is nothing for me to feel ashamed about when I say that I am a redneck or country boy. It boils me quickly when I feel that I am either being made fun of or thought down on because of who I am. I am proud to say that I grew up on my grandfather's farm and that both sides of my family grew their own food. They provided with produce and cattle during the Great Depression and afterward for their families and survived. Both sides of my family would be the symbol of what "country" is. One side is entirely cowboy and the other redneck.

Do not misinterpret me though. I will be the first in line when it comes to changing something that is derogatory or negative to my behavior. I cannot stand people that cannot read, write, or speak clearly at all by their choice. If someone cannot learn or needs help, then by all means they are excused. I am not associating myself with the "image" of the hick that the media has produced. (No teeth, drunk, spitting tobacco, can hardly talk, mentally challenged.) Those are actually few and far between but nevertheless, that is not what a redneck is.

Obviously, you can see that this is an important issue to me and is one that is near to my heart. I am not offended by any means, I purely wanted to reveal a part of who I am and what I stand for. This is not something that can be changed because it is not something that needs to. I am truly a jack of all trades. I am a person who loves opera and classical music. Who also enjoys movies, theatre, guns, rap, knives, hunting, fishing, museums, sophistication, intellectual discussions, sitting around a campfire, cold weather, rock and roll, ( okay basically every type of music) and s'mores. I almost like it all. I love hispanic people, black people, white people, asian people, european people, or just anything from the three human classes. Oh and I'm a redneck.

Ready

Today...was boring. All work and no play. That's been the theme of late. I caught up on sleep, which was nice, but didn't have any time to do anything. Hopefully tomorrow will be different.

I am really ready to move. I've been crossing my fingers for a job in Paris and nothing has happened as of yet. Gotta get the job, then the house, and then hopefully a life! Ready.

I noticed that I've been impatient today. I don't know why. Maybe it is frustration
over not having money or being where I want to be. Hmm...that may be it!

Lately I've been performing an inventory of myself as a whole. Like a computer system, I need updates. There are several things that I want to change about myself and have struggled to do so in the past. For example, I often feel guilty or uncomfortable when I voice and stand on an opinion that is against my friends, girlfriend, or family. Obviously, I'm not talking about matters of concrete faith, or terribly sincere things. They are typically trivial things but occasionally, they are not. I am teaching myself to be...well, me. It is not easy.

Do not mistake this as myself being a confused person. I know exactly who I am in Christ and life. It is not a problem of not knowing who I am, rather a problem of knowing who I am and changing that. I am in a constant state of changing and growing. I do not believe in certain conditions that "make" people the way they are. We are often too quick to departmentalize people in categories to fit our own understandings and explanations. A boy isn't paying attention in class, therefore he is ADD. A young girl is hyper so she must be ADHD! (By the way, only 3-5% of the world's population has ADHD. So...) And yes even the OCD's. Why so many acronyms? I believe that we often "declare" what we are to the world so we can explain our own quirky behavior.

I believe that we make who we are. If I see something wrong in myself, I should fix it. It is as simple as that. The only problem is fixing it. We, as humans, do not like change. We never have. It is not that we cannot change though but that we do not. We have the choice. We choose not to. Go ahead. Take a few seconds and mull that one over. Breathe in....breathe out.
Every single person chooses who they want to be. If I am sarcastic and too sharp, then I must change myself. If I am too lazy or a pushover, I must adjust the way I live. Everything is a choice.

So, to everyone I know, I am being more persistent, forthright, and bold with my opinions. I should not feel guilty if I must listen to everyone else's...right? Too long I have let things go just to keep the peace. I am changing myself for the better and will stand on the issues that I want to stand on.

Thank you. Good night.

Late

Hey erbody! I still have 5 minutes to this day so I'll be in a hurry. I had a fairly good day. We had a good service and the Lord moved in people's lives.

Today was basically a lazy Sunday. I am really thankful for that too! I was able to relax and take it easy. Work is definitely not something I am looking forward to in 8 hours from now. Oh well.

I am ready to move. Most definitely. Prayerfully, a job will open up soon and I can afford to go. I look forward to the things that God has in store for me and can't wait until I receive them! Well, its time to go to sleep so.... G'Night.

Saturday

I had an okay kind of day today. I don't particularly care for working on Saturdays but alas, one must do what one can if to survive! That reminds me of an old song called Money.

A thought came to me today. (Imagine that!) Every girl/woman I saw today I compared to Bethany. In a good way. I would think, "She isn't as pretty as Bethany" or "I'm so glad that she chose me". It was refreshing. I loved the feeling that I had the exact person that matched me.

I often wonder about what I will be like five years from now. Where will I be? What will I be doing? Who will I be? This can all add a bit of anxiety to one's life. I can't deny that I worry or fret over my future, but I also know that it is all in God's hands. It reminds me of this verse.

Philippians 4:11 "Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content."

I don't think that this gives me a reason to be lazy or confined to where I am at now. Rather, I believe that this verse interprets as saying, "Be happy. Wherever you are, in whatever shape you are in, be happy." Then I started thinking about those songs, "Don't worry, be happy" and "Three little birds"! Great songs when you're worried about stuff. So, I encourage you all to be happy with what you are doing now. Don't stay where you've always been, but be whatever and wherever God wants you to be.

Ciao

Crazy

This is only a side entry for today...

I was on lunch and browsed by a website that I usually get all of my funny crap from and saw this. I cried my eyes out I was laughing so hard! Here's to all you people from North Carolina! *wink wink. ;)

Warmth

The Lord is so good to me. He supplies my every need. I am so thankful for my girlfriend, Bethany. She is everything that I imagined love would be and more. Last night was a critical one for the both of us. I was able to fully open myself to someone for the first time. Without getting all complicated or telling a long story, I will just say that in my heart and soul I know that I have found the one person in the world that I can truly trust and confide in. It is a rare gift to find someone as such. I cherish our love and friendship every single day.

I know in the deepest caverns of my soul that I am unabashedly, unequivocally in love with Bethany Pearce. That is the most amazing feeling in the world, feeling your heart anchored to the heart of the one you love. I shall never forget it.

Thank you Bethany. For warming my heart and giving life to my own. It is something, to be a son in the hands of a loving God. I weep at His love for me.

Prayer

So....my opinion on the Republican party changed dramatically in one night. Wow. Palin's speech was awesome! It was about 10 minutes into her speech and I said, "Everyone in America is thinking the exact same thing. That's why he picked her!".


I made first contact with my gf's dad yesterday. "Dum...Dum...Dummmm!" Naw, he was really cool. He was easy to talk to and joke with. Now I just need to talk with mum!

So, I didn't know that guys could get mammograms until last night. A friend of mine is having one today. He has a really sore spot on his chest and its been there a while. Pray for him if you can. While on this topic, my cousin recently found that she has stage 4 cancer and is scheduled to have both breasts removed on the 18th. Please keep her in your prayers and believe with me that she will be healed!

Adieu!

Awake...

I woke up at 6:31 am today. It was one of those times where you are jerked from sleep so fast that you don't even know what happened. I was totally awake. I Didn't know why but felt like I needed to pray. Those are so weird sometimes.

So I think I found who I'm voting for in November! Chuck Baldwin of the Constitution party. I've never voted for anyone from an independent party before but his stance on issues are the best I've seen. He's a Baptist pastor in Pensacola, Florida and has his own internet radio station. Check him out! www.baldwin08.com

I am so ready for the next stages in my life. I feel that there are places that God is wanting to take me. They will require new sacrifices and give new rewards. My old youth pastor would say that I am in the "God Fog". I'm trying to feel out where God wants me and can't see a thing! I believe that letting go is the key. If I let go and give everything to God, He will direct my path...

Greeting

Greetings to all. This is a collection of my thoughts on life, love, and everything in between. I will be daringly honest and will hold nothing back. This will be the only place that you will know my mind, so if you care, cherish it.

I will expose inner folds of my mind and it will not always be pretty. We are all given a mind of our own, so there may be views or opinions that you find agreeable or offensive. That is your discretion.

Congratulations on being one of few to know the real me. So sit down, buckle up, and please keep your hands inside the vehicle. Its going to be a bumpy ride.

P.S. Don't feed the animals.