A Difference

I've come to realize a few things over the past several days. Things that I once loved no longer hold my attention. For example: I would normally be able to spend hours on the internet every day. Watching videos, playing games, or just on myspace/facebook was what typically described my day. I logged on tonight and after I checked my email and updated my facebook status I kind of just stopped and looked around. I was bored.

Mind you, this is not just a boredom from lack of entertainment but one of what occupied so much of my time. My priorities have changed. I thought of that old song that holds so much power in it's words. "Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus".

Turn your eyes upon Jesus.
Look full in His wonderful face.
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

We so often weaken Christ in our lives. I heard a quote the other day that said, "Jesus is waiting to be wanted". Wow. How much conviction does that place on your heart? If none, beware.

How many times have I prayed for the gifts of the Spirit in my life? How many times have I asked for miracles, healings, and supernatural manifestations in my life and ministry? How stupid! How foolish I was. God does not want to give me supernatural powers! He wants me to lead people to Him! He wants people to lead others to Him! He wants you to lead others to Him!
Forget powers and gifts and cling to the cross! Without holiness we will not see God! I don't need the gift of wisdom or knowledge in my life when I have Christ!

How pathetic we must all be to consider ourselves a primary candidate for His power and gifts. We can not even go through a week, One Week, without sin or corruption in our hearts and spirits. How can He trust us with the supernatural if we cannot overcome the natural? Wow. So simple.

Thank you Lord for not giving me what is rightfully mine, or due. I could never repay the love, grace, mercy, kindness, affection, patience, peace, friendship, teaching, comforting, correcting, and desire that you have given me. I am not worthy to be called a son in your kingdom, but a servant instead. Let me become your servant as the mighty men before me. You are worthy of a million eternities' worth of praise and I am immensely grateful that you accept mine. I love you Lord. Hallelujah.

Victory!

I have been through a myriad of things this past week.  Some good, some not so much.  I have begun a series in our youth on holiness and it has brought me to a greater level.  

I woke up this morning with a song in my heart.  Ever heard of "Joy Unspeakable"?  Check it out.  Lemme give you a little tidbit.

I have found His grace is all complete,
He supplieth every need;
While I sit and learn at Jesus’ feet,
I am free, yes, free indeed.

I dreamed a very eventful dream last night.  I was going through a type of movie theater but the ceilings were very low and dark through the hallways.  There was a very strange feeling around everything in the dream.  I would walk up to a curtain that had the image and name of that movie on it and just look at it.  Behind each curtain was the movie room.  So, there were no doors, just each curtain.  

When I looked at the movie name and image I immediately knew what it was about or what it had in the movie.  It was like an instant movie rating.  This one was rated R.  There was something very eery about it all.  All of a sudden, something changed and I saw everything for what it really was.  This wasn't a movie but a stronghold in my life!  Not particularly with movies with an R rating but the content in the movies.  It was a very strong temptation to go through the curtain and I came close, but I resisted!  I never went inside!  

That's when I woke up and realized what the Lord was trying to tell me.  I had started the tearing down of places that the enemy has built inside of me.  That's why I woke up with this song on my lips!  Through victory in Christ I have joy unspeakable!  Hallelujah! 

I have now turned my attention to my inner man and his well being.  The war has begun.  

Leavin

"I'm leavin on a jet plane. I don't know when I'll be back again..."

I've been singing this song while I pack for my second trip to the great state of North Carolina. For the next few days my fiance and I will be in a whirlwind of wedding planning, family visiting, and sleep deprived days. Pray for us.

We hope to have engagement pictures made during this time also, which is exciting. We can finally have some nice pictures of us together.




I'm looking forward to this trip, however hectic it may be.
It will be a nice breath of fresh air for me. If anything, I get some Zaxby's! Yay!