Re-Creating

I have decided to change. I will be re-creating myself from the ground up. Follow me to my new blog and we'll see where this road leads!

The passing of time

I have become severely lax concerning this blog. I have not forgotten it but have been waaaaay too busy. More to come....i promise.

My Heart's Cry

I feel a pulling from the Lord to repentance and to give myself to a time of "sackcloth and ashes". I am not reaching my potential in Christ with the way I am living now. It's not enough.

There is a time that is coming soon where I will be needed to do things that I cannot personally do without God's help. There is something great and terrible coming and I fear that I am not capable of ministering to people or representing Christ to the degree that I should. I must change. I feel as though God is granting His people a small window of time to repent and prepare for the coming storm. Most of us are so asleep that we cannot and will not wake up.
God says,

"Awake you who sleep, and arise from the dead, and Christ will give you light!"
Ephesians 5:14

Can you not see that we are the light of the world? What good is that light if we hide it? Why would Jesus die for a group of people to calmly and quietly hide their flicker of a flame? A Christian you say? Bleh. We are no more worthy of the title "Christian" than Satan is "righteous"!

Jesus said that these signs shall follow them that believe;
1. In my name shall they cast out devils;
2. They shall speak with new tongues;
3. They shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.

Mark 16:17-18

How many have you accomplished this week? We are so enamored with ourselves that we cannot even see the sinner! Forget Satan and his minions! We can't even conquer our own flesh! How are we supposed to have signs and wonders that lead to the glory of Christ if we can't stay saved for more than 5 hours?

Jesus also stated that, "Unless your righteousness shall exceed the righteousness of the Pharisees, you will never enter into the kingdom of heaven"!

Matthew 5:20

God, please let me be better than the people who nailed your Son on the cross. Forgive me, oh God! Give me clean hands and a pure heart. Let there be a right spirit in me and create in me a clean heart. Let my focus be solely on you. You are the one true King, the only One Righteous Lord, the Lover of my soul, my Provider, my Comfort, you alone are worthy!

My Mirror

I've been praying about things lately and have found that we have so much more pride than we think. It has infiltrated our lives to the very core. We have become so much like our enemy that the Father no longer sees His son in our lives but the working of Satan! 

How often we think we are being abused or under appreciated! I deserve more! It is my right! So many preachers focus on "Our authority in Jesus" instead of "The lordship of Christ". We don't need a master, only a nanny. Someone who can watch out for us. Someone who can change us when we make a mess of things. Someone who can feed us what we want, when we want it. No more, no less.

We no longer have an all powerful God who reigns in majesty and unity, but have reduced Him to our slave! With what authority do we say or believe such things? You know what it is that gives us this belief. The church has focused so much on it that it has lost the sight of Jesus altogether. It is the spirit of anti-Christ. We can't see! If we would only look into the mirror, we would find our anti-Christ.
Can you not see? It is yourself! 

I have become like my enemy. God forbid that we become so blessed from Heaven and are bestowed with immense power from the Holy Spirit that we outshine Christ in this world!

Forgive us Lord.

A Difference

I've come to realize a few things over the past several days. Things that I once loved no longer hold my attention. For example: I would normally be able to spend hours on the internet every day. Watching videos, playing games, or just on myspace/facebook was what typically described my day. I logged on tonight and after I checked my email and updated my facebook status I kind of just stopped and looked around. I was bored.

Mind you, this is not just a boredom from lack of entertainment but one of what occupied so much of my time. My priorities have changed. I thought of that old song that holds so much power in it's words. "Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus".

Turn your eyes upon Jesus.
Look full in His wonderful face.
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

We so often weaken Christ in our lives. I heard a quote the other day that said, "Jesus is waiting to be wanted". Wow. How much conviction does that place on your heart? If none, beware.

How many times have I prayed for the gifts of the Spirit in my life? How many times have I asked for miracles, healings, and supernatural manifestations in my life and ministry? How stupid! How foolish I was. God does not want to give me supernatural powers! He wants me to lead people to Him! He wants people to lead others to Him! He wants you to lead others to Him!
Forget powers and gifts and cling to the cross! Without holiness we will not see God! I don't need the gift of wisdom or knowledge in my life when I have Christ!

How pathetic we must all be to consider ourselves a primary candidate for His power and gifts. We can not even go through a week, One Week, without sin or corruption in our hearts and spirits. How can He trust us with the supernatural if we cannot overcome the natural? Wow. So simple.

Thank you Lord for not giving me what is rightfully mine, or due. I could never repay the love, grace, mercy, kindness, affection, patience, peace, friendship, teaching, comforting, correcting, and desire that you have given me. I am not worthy to be called a son in your kingdom, but a servant instead. Let me become your servant as the mighty men before me. You are worthy of a million eternities' worth of praise and I am immensely grateful that you accept mine. I love you Lord. Hallelujah.

Victory!

I have been through a myriad of things this past week.  Some good, some not so much.  I have begun a series in our youth on holiness and it has brought me to a greater level.  

I woke up this morning with a song in my heart.  Ever heard of "Joy Unspeakable"?  Check it out.  Lemme give you a little tidbit.

I have found His grace is all complete,
He supplieth every need;
While I sit and learn at Jesus’ feet,
I am free, yes, free indeed.

I dreamed a very eventful dream last night.  I was going through a type of movie theater but the ceilings were very low and dark through the hallways.  There was a very strange feeling around everything in the dream.  I would walk up to a curtain that had the image and name of that movie on it and just look at it.  Behind each curtain was the movie room.  So, there were no doors, just each curtain.  

When I looked at the movie name and image I immediately knew what it was about or what it had in the movie.  It was like an instant movie rating.  This one was rated R.  There was something very eery about it all.  All of a sudden, something changed and I saw everything for what it really was.  This wasn't a movie but a stronghold in my life!  Not particularly with movies with an R rating but the content in the movies.  It was a very strong temptation to go through the curtain and I came close, but I resisted!  I never went inside!  

That's when I woke up and realized what the Lord was trying to tell me.  I had started the tearing down of places that the enemy has built inside of me.  That's why I woke up with this song on my lips!  Through victory in Christ I have joy unspeakable!  Hallelujah! 

I have now turned my attention to my inner man and his well being.  The war has begun.  

Leavin

"I'm leavin on a jet plane. I don't know when I'll be back again..."

I've been singing this song while I pack for my second trip to the great state of North Carolina. For the next few days my fiance and I will be in a whirlwind of wedding planning, family visiting, and sleep deprived days. Pray for us.

We hope to have engagement pictures made during this time also, which is exciting. We can finally have some nice pictures of us together.




I'm looking forward to this trip, however hectic it may be.
It will be a nice breath of fresh air for me. If anything, I get some Zaxby's! Yay!